Help! New to this...still hoping for R

[Rusty]

I know, I know....I was doing so well up until that point. And I did try to stop. You are so right!
I am basically back to how I was before, when he called today, I was right back like it had never happened. Was light and told him "not a big deal", basically. I am having a ball with this wedding and, even though I know it will be emotional, it feels different for some reason. Happy, not sad. And that is exactly what I am going to do - exactly like you said MP! My sister and friends have given the same advice - it will be so much better to have a great time and enjoy my S and the wedding.
I feel really good about things right now. I know how that goes, the roller coaster of the ups and downs, but the ups are more frequent now and the downs aren't so far. Thanks to all of you!