I did that, and found a whole other list of reasons extending back to my childhood. There may be other reasons that have nothing to do with your M.
I read two books, Control Freak, and The Dance of Fear. I highly recommend both. There is very good insight, and great ways to combat the control freak within.
When the panic hits, put your feet firmly on the ground, deep breath, or take a quick walk. Believe me, it helps.
Lola
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
