Been busy this weekend. More positives than negatives.
I think.
I'll take that anyday.
Saturday, after I got off work, went to roomie's work to pick up her car. I called her work, but she was with a client. I had emailed her a bit before I left work, asking if she had lunch yet and for her to call me and let me know if she wanted me to just go in and exchange keys. No reply.
I go to her work and go and wait in the lobby. She has clients in her office. She waives me to come in and introduces me to her client and his son. He is the man she was helping with his Power of Attorney paperwork a while ago. I talked to them a little and she showed that she had tried to email me back, but I had already left. We exchange keys and I tell her we will come back to pick her up and head out to Six Flags.
Finally get a haircut and go home. After quick visit to grandparents house pick up roomie and hit the park. Only 45 minutes at Water park. The rest of the day and night riding rides. More that I have ever ridden before. We had a great time. Roomie was looking VERY tired most of the day. Pick up fast food after closing down the place and head home. Kids want to come back for Fathers Day.
Late start on Sunday. Roomie tells me to stay in bed. She goes to bathroom with door wide open. The way our bed is situated, direct view of her. I found that strange.
I have to take nephew to work and roomie getting breakfast and girls up and going. Get my gifts. Sit and tear up a bit with my D's. Homemade gifts and cards. The best, you know. Save the gift roomie got me for later. No card from her, I notice. Before I leave to take nephew, roomie state that we might be running late for church. I am a little upset, because I want to go to church and of course, she has not been wanting to go. I get back and D's are ready and roomie getting ready. She is in bathroom changing and I open door a little. "Hey, I'm changing!" she says. I tell her that we can skip church. Running too late. "Close the door, I'm changing." Ok, that is strange, too. Let me see her pee. Walk in on me while showering. Oh well. I eat some breakfast and she gets us off to church.
Last weeks sermon was, "Is God in you Marriage?" Last Tuesday, when I talked to roomie, I asked her what she thought about the sermon. She said that we didn't have a marriage, thats why God was not in it.
This week, it was about passing the tests the He gives us. Like Abraham was asked to offer his son as an offering. He passed that test. He may not have passed all tests, but he passed this one. Roomie getting very emotional as usual. I get emotional. At the end of service, Pastor asks everyone if we are passing our tests. Are we making the right decisions for the family. Now we are very emotional.
I notice roomie is having a hard time swallowing. That was one of the symptoms of her stroke last year.
Roomie looks at me and asks if I want to go to the altar to pray. I say yes, take her by the hand and lead her to the front. We kneel down next to each other and she places her hand on top of mine. I pray silently at first and then start to whisper my prayers. She is doing the same. I am starting to sob. She is sobbing. A lady comes to pray over her. I help her up and we go back to her seat. I lean in to tell her something. I was just going to talk, I don't know what. I was feeling something and just then a lady comes to talk to her and she is crying again. I hold off.
We get D's and in the car, I lean over to her, hold her head and whisper, "You need to do us all a favor and get in to see the doctor. You HAVE to." She agrees and says she will make an appointment.
Get the day started. Go to Krispy Kreme and we eat some sweets and we read the paper and we are all talking and having fun. Trying to decide what to do. I can tell roomie is just not feeling well. Not up to much. They keep asking me, and I tell them to decide. Whatever they want me to. We decide to got to grocery store and go home and then decide.
At store, I decide to burn some meat on the grill. At checkout, roomie tells me she will pay for half the groceries. I tell her I can pay, I just got paid. She then pays for it all and says that I can pay her back.
???????????
Relaxing at home, S14 is dropped off and is home. Nephew and friend are home. EVERYONE is home. Feels good.
Roomie finally returns a phone call to her mother. She is a little upset at her from something this past Friday. MIL never called her back.
Her grandfather in Laredo passed away. She is upset. I am hugging to comfort her. We hug for a while. She is still having a hard time swallowing. I get her a popsicle. She calls her father and she is unable to talk to him. I take the phone and finish the convo for her. I tell her that I am taking her to the emergency room. She refuses. I tell her what I see. She is worried about work. She is the MOST stubborn woman I have ever known.
Thats why, if she leaves, she won't come back. To stubborn to admit she made a mistake.
She calms down. I make dinner for the family and we are all eating in the kitchen standing. Talking. Laughing. S14 hugging me. Nephew hugs me for Fathers Day.
Like I said before, these are the times to cherish. I look at roomie while this is going on. She looks at me. She sees me just taking it all in. The family. THATS what is important. We are secondary. She knows what I'm thinking.
I do dishes. Family keeps on calling her cell. She tells me to stop and lets go watch a movie. She sits on sofa and is asleep in 20 minutes. I guess no movie tonight. We go to bed and D's sneak in and make camp on the floor by our bed.
It almost feels like she is changing her mind on moving.
Conflicted. She asked me yesterday if I had told my parents of her moving. I said no.
We are going to spend the next couple days in Laredo. Laredo in summer at a funeral. Lucky us.
I asked roomie if she wanted to go alone or together. She said we should all go.
So we will all go.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
