Oh yes I know exactly what I contributed to the downfall. No communication at all. I mean I started out, I could tell her anything but after a while it seemed to me that the only thing she wanted to talk about was the negative things. Nothing positive or any thing like that. And her criticism cuts through me like a knife man. So I started telling her half truths, and lies, just so I would not hear her criticize me. I mean it hurts to hear the perosn you love the most, have nothing good to say about you. Just criticize, from the way I dress to the weight I gained. I mean I felt alone, and was afraid to open myself up to her any longer. So when she found out the lies I told it just made things worse. So thats my contribution, and I have told her I can be honest with her again, thats not the problem. I'm all to hurt from her acusations, and criticism, to open up right now, it is going to be a process for me. But I'm willing to see it through.
