I'm thinking I might need a bit of encouragement to go on and I'm hoping you can give it to me.
I had a really good weekend this weekend doing stuff for me and I come back to work today and am reminded of how stressful this whole h thing is. He still hasn't arranged a meet up for this week yet. The thing I am stressed about is that I have checked our joint account for bills and it will be overdrawn again really soon. I have already put extra money in there this month and can't afford/ do not want to again. He never checks it, he just puts the same amount in each month and assumes it'll be ok - never mind the fact that his phone bill was �180 last month.
The reason that I am stressed is that I know I have to sort it out with him but it will throw up negative stuff about me in his eyes again and make it seem more apparent that we sell, start dividing more etc. We each have separate personal accounts and just have one together for the house. Theoretically it should work. I am going to have to do some analysis, but I just don't see why I should do this on my own. Before we went on holiday he promised he would take more/ some responsibility for this account and not leave it to me to check and that lasted a week. Then he came back from holiday and said he didn't want to see me anymore and has stopped checking the account. If I do a 180 and stop checking we will incure loads of bank charges.
I was really hoping to stay dark this week and for him to text me to arrange a meet to I could turn up all friendly and care-free. Now it looks as if I will have to contact him and sound like a nag impinging on his 'new life'.
Would it be easier to just walk away and get on with life. I had such a nice weekend and started this morning on such a high from it. Now I am bumped back down to earth again by him.
