was thinking a little more about your sitch on my ride in. One thing that I think helps is to define your goals a la MWD in DR. I'm assuming you've read the book - did you figure out your goals? I know you've shared, quite eloquently, the sort of big, overarching things you'd like to accomplish with H in order to reconcile. But what are the specific milestones that you'd see along the way to know that progress is being made? The very small, specific things that start to add up and lead to the big things?
Maybe writing those down and being able to refer back to them would be helpful to you at this point - help you judge where things stand and give you a next step to work towards.