Real life is----part 5

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I don't really know why except for doing things alone is sad

Yes it is hon, and this whole thing is way too fresh, the first year of doing things alone will be hard, I went recently camping with kids for the first time without stbx, and it was hard looking at all the families. From time to time I just wanted to bawl, I let myself cry for a bit...but afterwards, I always felt better (and I made sure I called a friend who knew my sitch and who listened).

He expects you to do his laundry??? what a tool! what is wrong with him? he'd lucky you haven't torched his clothes at this point! sheeeesh!

There's a part of us that will never recover from all of this.

I refuse to believe this, I dont' want anyone to have such power over me. Will I remember with some sadness perhaps, 10yrs for now and think of what might've been? yes, but by God's grace, I will heal and live the life God intended for and for my kids. I know it seems impossible right now to think like this, but it is possible and we all deserve it.
An awesome book that is helping me heal is "healed without scars" by David Evans which talks about this very topic, how to heal from life's worse traumas. It is the best book I've read so far about healing.