Had a nice weekend. Friday was my last day at work before I start my new business adventure on Monday. My dad came in and we transfered his car over to me so I now have a vehicle to drive to work.
I took my dad into my new office to show him around and my W shows up. I was surprised because she was in MD today and I did not expect her back till late. She said she knew I would be here and just wanted to stop by since everyone went home early today.
Saturday we had swim meet with kids and I did yard work. W and I watch tv. I went to bed and read till 11:30 she did not come to bed till really late.
Sunday, went to chuch alone. W has not gone since Mothers Day not sure why. Did more yard work and helped W get ready for her family. Had nice time with inlaws.
W again did not come to bed till midnight. Tryed to snuggle up to her. Why is it she seems so friendly and nice and we get along during the day. We talk I try to listen and ask questions. Say thank you for the little things she does but whenever I get close it is instant ice cube. She just layed there like a log. Didn't move didn't do anything. I feel like I am invading her space. I just thought it would have been a nice ending to a good weekend.
I need to stop doing that. I guess again I need to let her initiate all contact otherwise she is very cold. Its sort of like I want everthing to be nice and peaceful around the house but we are only platonic roomates so keep your distance.
She had noticed I have lost weight and that I am looking good. Also was wondering why I am always dressed nice. Told her I like to be dressed nice and it makes me feel good. Not sure if she thinks I am only looking good all the time to impress her or what but it does make me feel more confident and it is also to impress her.
I just don't know what to do. Everybody says paitence and I do see alot of positive things but still tomorrow it will be one year since the imfamous speach and I just would like a little bit more. How do you win the heart of someone that tells you that her feelings are dead for you. That she feels nothing for you and may never will. I am just frustrated this morning. It was just such a letdown.
