(((cw))) Just read your post, and it breaks my heart as well. I hurt for you!!! I am so sorry you have to go through this. If I may, I would like to share something with you.
Your relationship, as you know it, is over. That is true. But that does not mean that you can't start over with your H in a new relationship. Some of the best healing I have experienced is to stop thinking of a "reconciliation" per se, but to view that as over, and realize that there is a time that the healing is done, and you are ready for a new relationship. Who says that new relationship can't be with your H?
Acceptance is a difficult thing, but it also brings some sense of relief. It means you start to work on healing from the old relationship, and that you will be better equipped to start a new one. I like the thought of starting over, because, as Michele says, there was a reason why your H fell in love with you, and it can happen again.
Breath...and remember it ain't over til the fat lady sings!!!
Lola
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
