Number 8, still too late for DB to work.

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They are going to my favorite pizza place for dinner and the kids practically begged met to go with them. Regardless of the fact that I think he's less than a stellar father, he is their father and I am not going to take away their belief in him. As they grow, they can see with their own eyes that he made selfish choices and make their own decisions on the matter.

My H is very passive aggressive. A text from him today (yes, I asked him once again not to do this): "I am also not going to be bullied or cajoled or guilted into changing course. I felt I lived that way for much of the time we were together and it made me miserable." He never spoke his mind, he never stood up for himself until this act. Passive aggressive indeed. He never once said he was unhappy, he went straight to divorce. We rarely fought. Everyone but him, me included, thought we were a happy, strong couple. But inside this rage, anger and disgust built and built until he couldn't make it right again, he didn't want to make it right again.

To top off the rotten day, the gentleman from Retrouvialle called while I was napping. I told him that my husband has "no plans" on going. He asked if we had kids, I told him we did, he said, "he won't even go for them?" and I repeated the text above. He was dumbfounded and said he was going to give him a call to see what he could do. I told him it wasn't a good idea and that he wasn't going to change his mind, but he said he'd call again and call me back if he was successful. No call back.

I know we are done. I don't care about not believing what they say, etc. He is done. And I know my husband, there's no turning back. He's more stubborn than me when he puts his mind to something. He's convinced himself that he was always miserable with me and never truly happy together.

My life as I know it, as I've worked for and made it is over. And I'm so tired, so spent from these past 10 months, I don't know how I'll ever get over this.