Ugh. I just saw that H last texted someone at 2:44 am Thursday night/Friday morning. This was right after he would have dropped me off from the concert. Must have been to OW. Stupid Horse.
I just felt sick. I'm sure he ended his text to her, Love or XOXO. Something I haven't heard from him in a long time. What the heck?! There really has fundamentally been NO change from him. I think that him wearing his ring and seeing me is "same old" with him. I agree, OD, that he still has something for me, but what?! Comfortability? What is crazy is that I know he still thinks I'm pretty...no doubt. I honestly (and I'm not being pompous)don't know what The Horse can be giving him that I couldn't (Probably good sex, b/c that was a HUGE issue with us, but one that was never talked about and could've been fixed). I feel like saying to him...I'm gold and you know that I treat YOU like gold. If you can't see that, then it's your loss. ARGH!
Also, no word today from him in re to my father. On Thursday, he was going up and down as to what he was going to get my dad for Father's Day. And still...nothing. I know my dad is thinking about it.
(((JEFF))) (((OD)))
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
