He's "done". Period.

[7 Year Itch]

Thanks Everyone. Ted, I wish we weren't having to meet like this, but I'll definitely come check out your thread, maybe we can help each other through.

Well today has been has horrible as I thought. Cooked H a special breakfast for Fathers Day (from the girls) then left for church. He then left to take the girls for a day of fishing. Then when he gets home (around dinner time) it's the bomb day for the girls. Nice Father's Day huh. His planning seriously is the worst in this. So tonight we tell the girls he's leaving. I hardly slept last night. I mean how do you get over the last night with your spouse in the house? Tonight could be the last night we all live together. I cannot seriously comprehend that. And I'm devestated at what the girls are going to go through.

I feel awful today, and just know the next few weeks are going to be horrible.

I keep trying to stay positive and think "maybe this will be the thing that really makes him think" but he's just been so resolved on divorce with no interest in working together on anything. I just don't hold out much hope. I know it will be much easier for me to DB when he leaves, so that's the ONLY positive I'm taking out of it for now.

I just don't know how everyone gets through this. I was a basket case at church today, and the sermon was all about suffering (um, yeah, felt like it was tailor made for me). I pretty much bawled through the whole thing.

Then I randomly walked around Target not even knowing what I was doing there, but just did not want to go home. Then finally got tired of walking around and came home. now here I sit trying to decide, do I take the family pics down? Do I take our wedding pics in the bedroom down? Is that worse for my girls, is it better to leave as much around the house the same? It kills me to see these happy family and wedding pics around.

I know, trivial in the scheme of things, but I'm just sitting here, not having a clue of what to do with myself and just want to do SOMETHING.

How do you say goodbye on that last night? Someone please share the manual.

Chris