Yes, lets try and be more expressive. I have a tendency to procrastinate on my personal feelings and not really "deal" with my feelings. I've always felt I needed to be the strong one.
One thing I want from both of us is to never be desperate. I really want to be strong with who I am. You are right, I am not going to do anything until I'm certain. For now, though, there are things that I know I want to do for myself. Those things are: 1) be honest w/ H about my feelings. 2)I want to move into my own apartment. While H is in limboland, I want to finally live by myself in my own place. (I lived w/ my parents until we got married. Now, I'm in our house still)
I do still love him. I think I'm just a little scared of being hurt again or making a fool of myself by holding on?
L--If I need anything from you it would be a reminder of what I'm doing isn't desperate or wrong. I believe he still has feelings for me somewhere. I just don't want to be made a fool of.
I'm here for you. ((((ONE DAY))))
Running out to my parents for Father's Day. TTYS.
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
