Today was the party for his grandma. It was SO hard to be there. It's hard to be around him and his family. He was OK toward me. Mostly ignored me, but wasn't terribly cold. He did ask me to pick up a gift card for his dad, and sign his name on everyone's cards. It felt nice to sign his name with mine and the kids, so that was good. He also reffered to me as his wife. He was giving his cousin our email address, and said, "this is my general email account, you know, my wife's account." I'm not sure why he gave her that account, instead of his private one that he opened when we split.
I cried on the way home, though , just becaue it was tough being there. Tomorrow's going to be hard too. I'm not going to church because I don't think I can stand a Father's Day celebration by myself. But, I'm meeting h and his parents for lunch with the kids. This should be interesting.
Finding my strength, WHERE catfan?? I'm falling to pieces.
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
