I'm not depressed. Am actually feeling more stable than have in a long while. Just trying to make sense of it all. I agree with you on most points, but am having a hard time seeing how things could actually work out in reality.
My W admittedly focuses primarily on herself. If she respected me, she wouldn't have slept with another man. If she respected me, she would have been remorseful if she couldn't help herself from sleeping with another man. If she respected me, she would have had empathy.
And it's not a communication thing, for us anyway. We communicate incredibly well - it's like an energy bond almost. We look at each other and we know what each other is thinking. And she still feels that, and so do I - I say that because she's told me. But she doesn't think that can sustain a R. It's just talk, right?
I don't know what I believe anymore. Just see so many people in pain and I wonder what the point is.
