You're alright. In the midst of our anxiety and nervousness we are all inclined to do some stupid things. I did my share. Hopefully you recognize that this was not a good direction and you can chalk it up as a lesson learned.
This is hard. Anyone here will tell you that. Keep your focus on the basics right now. When you're stronger and have your feet under you better you can worry about other things.
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
