Thank you for stopping by. I haven't updated because I've been busy thinking about my situation and what you all said about the sexy time issue. My husband did another 'drive by' Thursday night and then promptly went back downstairs to sleep on the couch. I don't think I want to tell him I'd rather not, because I don't want to push him away. However, I think I will tell him I love that time with him and would prefer if he stayed upstairs in our bed afterwards. Otherwise I end up feeling a bit used.
Tomorrow I'm kayaking at Shaver Lake. I'm excited but a little sad. This is something my husband and I used to do together. We'd go hiking in Yosemite, camping at Mammoth Pools, fishing in the San Joaquin... just makes miss the way things were before the ugliness entered our relationship. We used to be such great friends.
Is my fabulosity outweighed by my flaws?
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence
