I have noticed that your tone has not changed much since your last thread...
This was a dating R - right? Dating is all about exploring the possibility of a longer term commitment. And either person can decide to end things if it isn't working for them. No one is obligated to stay and no one is obligated to offer explanations beyond - this just isn't working for me.
I think perhaps you didn't take the time to grieve the end of your M. You didn't take the time to rebuild the foundation and/or core that defines you as an individual. That is why this is hitting you this hard. That is when this R ended, you crumbled.
R's are not suppose to define you. R's are not suppose to be your foundation. Healthy R's are relationships where two whole people decide to share a part of themselves with another person.
IMHO, you need to shift your focus off the R and onto you. What do you need to do for you so that you are a more balanced individual? Explore why you were so dependent on this woman in defining your sense of self. Explore why the meaning of life seemed to hinge on the success of your R with her.
