About a month ago, I posted about how I had a massage at the seminar and that I was absolutely shocked at the number of knots in my neck and shoulders. And then I went to a massage therapist here twice on a weekly basis - till she fired me and told me to go relax and then come back!
So today, after yoga, I signed up for a massage from my yoga teacher. And GUESS WHAT???!!!! NO KNOTS in my shoulder!!! Zero, nada, zippo - shoulder knots. I had two symmetrical ones on the my traps and a 1-2 small ones in my neck. As for the lap top hip - NO PAIN at all!!
She actually pushed harder to see if there were hidden knots! LOL! There is muscle tightness - that is to be expected b/c I am increasing the intensity of my workouts slowly.
So taking is easy worked! Watching four movies worked. And yes, I am still nuts b/c my idea of cutting back means not sleeping with my laptop and stopping at 9 pm at least 3 days a week... I still have a ways to go. The goal is 9-7 during the week and zero hours on the weekend.
I do feel good. There were two stressors at work - it wasn't a big deal - I just did what I needed to do and let it go.
I do need to prioritize my life a little. July is all about adoption and home improvement w/ management work only. I don't want to write next month. I am burned out on writing.
And the expanding firm stuff - the concept has been introduced into my psyche. Now it will take time for gradually evolve in my brain and for me to gain a comfort level with the idea. I find that if I am not in the right mindset - 9 out of 10 times I miss my goal.
And I am slowing expanding my social life. The Bulge - it will go away but will take time. At this point The Bloat camoflages the progress I am making with the Bulge. My clothes are fitting better and I know that I have more muscle mass than I did a month ago. It took while to get this out of shape. It will take awhile to get back in shape.
I am happy with my life. I have a sense of peace and calm that I haven't had before. And no the timeline isn't back to my M or D In some ways, had I not had my not so great M - well I wouldn't have been motivated to get to where I am today.
As for dating. I am not setting goals. It isn't like I am not immersed in male companionship and exchanges. It is like art v/s pornography. Difficult to quantify - but you know it is pornography when you see it. When I see what I am looking for - I will recognize it. I am in no rush. It I am 60 when I meet someone that I feel is right - well I will be 60. I am not waiting to live. I feel very much alive at 42 (almost 43 in a few weeks)
