I'm probably going to get reamed for saying this but I must since I've been honest on these boards all along and more people here know my story than the people around me.
I don't even know how to write this but basically yesterday I "hooked up". Guess you can say it was a "one-dayer". It was a friend's friend, but I guess it doesn't matter who it was. Within 30 seconds after she left I felt so awful. I thought it would make me feel better but now its ten times worse....because now I miss W even more.
Why did I do it? It wasn't even worth it? I really hate myself right now. Now I have such low self esteem its not even funny. Guess this shows how weak I am too.
M 35 W 28 D 4
Bomb 4/28/08 Found out about PA 05/14/08 Separated 5/25/08 (not legally)
