Keep talking to your husband. Be as honest with him as you can. Talk to him. REALLY talk to him. Your feelings. Get him to talk about how he feels.
Having what you call a sham marriage does nothing for you, your husband, nor your son.
Can you really say that you did your all out best to try to make it work? I'm not sure you can. Neither of you.
Do you think that OM would be a better father to your child? Is that what you are looking for? I know your not, but it is something that has to be thought about. You imagine a life with OM, you can't keep him out of your sons life. Is he THAT good? Good enough for your son? Is he the one that you know you can rely on? Aside from all the "good" feelings, is he going to be there in the difficult times? Stand by you? Look deep inside. Be honest and truthful with yourself. If you say he IS the one, then so be it. If you only want to find out if he is, that is something ENTIRELY different.
As long as a decision is reached between your husband and you. AGREE to what is best for you, him and your son. Not just you up and going off. It sounds like you and husband might be at that juncture of deciding. But he may want to fight for marriage. He may not at this point.
Maybe your husband will finally see it. I think I do now. That is why I am dropping my rope. I don't WANT her here if she is not going to try and feels like it is hopeless. No use. Makes us both unhappy.
Prayers to you, wdid. Thank you for opening yourself to us.
I feel like I started to ramble. I am sorry if it comes out that way.
Last edited by hopeful4her; 06/14/0803:31 PM.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
