On The Rollercoaster Ride!

[addie]

W2G, Eagle and Nlt thank you so much for your very kind words. People like you and others that have posted to me have given me the strength and encouragement I needed to get me through this.

I'll be moving back to my hometown with S in about 10 days (as H had requested when in the midst of his A). After a lot of soul searching, I realize I am no longer willing to live with the status quo. H has been unhappy and dissatisfied with mostly everything for years dating back to before our M. Eventhough I realize I contributed to problems in our M, I have been EXTREMELY patient and supportive over the years as H moved from job to job sometimes in different towns, went back to school, pursued a wide range of interests, a couple of EAs, all in search of happiness but never found it. He has many, many unresolved issues to deal with. Although there are never any guarantees in life, if we hope to share a future together we must take steps to minimize the risk of this ever happening again. One way of achieving this is through IC and MC. Our M doesn't stand a chance if H does not BEGIN to address his issues. Until this happens, we cannot be together. Right now, I would not want H to move back to hometown with us.

W2G - When we moved out here it was a trial move. We still have a furnished house back in our hometown (a family member has been living there while we were away). I also have a job to go back to in a couple of months. I don't have too much packing to do - mainly clothing and some personal belongings. H will be staying here for the time being so everything else will stay.