well she made it a lot easyer to make this desision today. I have been a lot me confident around her lately. I rell her I feel like kissing you right now but I realise its not what ypu want and stuff like that.
well today I went to her work and pput rainex on her windsheil for her and brought her breakfast. I have realy strove to be a lot more there for her.
well her work is : no mans land" for me. her work friends are the ones who pushed her to get a D and hate me because i take there fun time friend away. well when I brought her breakfast to her there was tension in the air. my W came over and told me how nice it was for me to do all of this but if looks could kill, I would be dead from her friends.
well anyway my W looked nicd so I told her so and how any sain man whould be hitting on her. she looked from her friends to me and said " remember Marcum no pressure" in a sing song voice so I acseppted the reminder and left it at that. well my W calls me later and went into a monologe on how its uncomfortable for me to hit on her at work and how we are saposed to be getting to know eachother and not being so strait forward. I told my W i have never been one for mind games and when she met me she liked that fact. I also went into damage control mode and told her that I understood her feelins and I whish I wasent sucnh a slow learner but next time we hang out I will remember the rules.
well she didnt seem to understand what I was saying as she wanted to tell me how frustraited she is about me being so forward. I told her I understood. this made her more made because " oviously you dont understand because we talked about this before. My pace my rules." the thing was folks she actualy seemed to mm to be more flirty and more there. now I guess I take her clear instructions and back off further. the thing is one of the things that attracted me to her was my confidence. its herd to live a life were if ashes alone Im ok but as soon as her friends are around i make her uncomfortable.
