Neil, Thank you. I'll take you up on that. It's Friday evening and I came home from work, had a quick cry and am feeling a little better now. I have to drive by our little Pub on my way home, and my H was already there by 4:15. I have so many mixed feelings. I am worried about his drinking. He was there yesterday after work until 11 pm. He came home so drunk that I am surprised he could climb the stairs to the bedroom. He had to get up and go to work today, and he told me what a big hangover he had. Yet he is there again right after work tonight. Besides being worried I am sad, because we would usually meet there on Friday evenings (pre MLC) and have a few drinks and dinner. It was our "night out." He doesn't want me there now, and although I worked up the courage to go there last Friday evening, I just can't face it this week. It's raining, I'm tired and I have already cried my makeup off. I don't want to be there if he doesn't want me there. I don't want to watch him drink himself numb.
I will check out your sitch in newcomers. Thanks for checking in on me.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
