Today was tough...W didn't show up at 10 so I went to her place and she called while I on the way. I said "honestly, don't care if someone is there, but I have things to do." So I dropped off Abby. Meant some friends for lunch and then W came back after 1 to drop her. I got her housekey as well....don't like that she can just come in when I haven't even seen her place since she moved in.
We talked for a few minutes and then she said "Abby will probably tell you that I had a friend over" and Abby said "Ricky!". I was like cool. Honestly, i'm beyond it effecting me (at least in public) and I said "cool. well if you guys are dating, that's fine by me." She was like no, we are friends. I said "with benefits" and she said no.
I mean, F%$K....does she think I'm so stupid as to believe her. Fine, if she's with him so be it. I wish she'd just tell me. A lot of you are so lucky because your WAS at least tells you what's up. I've gotten space and one bried mention of "separation".....nothing at all. I still love her and I HATE her at the same time. I really wish I could pick up and leave town with Abby. Its not like my own family cares!!
Thanks to anyone who reads or comments. I'm off to see Kung Fu panda with the only person who matters!
M 35 W 28 D 4
Bomb 4/28/08 Found out about PA 05/14/08 Separated 5/25/08 (not legally)
