just wanted to give you a((((((((((HUG)))))))). So sorry that you're feeling down right now, Sex& The City sounds like the wrong choice indeed.
I'm not posting much recently and don't even have enough time to write an update but I'm thinking of you and miss all my frinds on the board terribly!
Talk to you soon, hold on, love.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
W2G - I know I would feel the same way. It's probably best you didn't answer H's call when you were upset with him. Take some time to calm yourself down and then speak to him when you are not as upset.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
Well H was supposed to come over this evening but a double booking occurred and now he's attending a work function instead. A huge part of me wonders is "she" is going to be there... even though they are "just friends" and he realizes his feelings for her "weren't real". But even if she is there... which I am pretty certain she will be... there is nothing I can do.
So pretty much the conversation went...
H: I forgot I had this thing tonight. I think I should attend. It's a screening and I get a special thanks in the credits. Besides S (boss) specifically asked me if I was going and he had the voice of "I want you to be there".
Me: You do what you need to do.
H: But I really wanted to see you guys. I think I have an early meeting tomorrow morning and then I'll come up to see you. We can pick D2 up early from daycare but I'll work from my cell tomorrow instead of going into the office.
Me: I've got yoga at 3pm.
H: Oh I know.. but we can still spend a nice amount of time together.
I can't remember how we got off the topic but I wished him a good night. And that was that.
Other than that, I mentioned to H yesterday that Sunday is Father's Day so if he'd like to spend the day with D2 he is more than welcome to.. being his day and all.... and he responded that he'd hoped to spend the day with both of us... maybe go out for a father's day lunch or something.
I really, really don't understand him. Not ONE bit!
I feel like I do allow the whole drop by family.. which doesn't feel too good.
Well H did come over yesterday. So much for spending the day though. He got here at 6pm. No call beforehand or anything saying that his schedule changed.
I know I'm not supposed to point out to him that he should have called but I did anyway. I didn't say it with "emotion" or anything.. just stated that next time a call would be nice.. but then of course he got a little defensive and stated he was so busy the day just got away from him.. he didn't even eat anything all day... all of which is NOT MY PROBLEM!
Other than that, he came and reheated dinner. Then we took D2 to DQ for ice cream. When we arrived he turned to me and said "What are you having my love?" One of the forms of endearment he used to say a lot but doesn't do really now.. so that could be a good thing.
Followed up with him to see if he heard back from his friend about painting the house.. he hasn't. If he doesn't hear back soon I'll just go with the quote I got from someone else (problem is I KNOW his friend would do it for a more reasonable price).
I mentioned to him that when D2 and I move that I would appreciate it if he would pick her up and take her to school in the mornings. Not all mornings but a few times a week because I'm sure there are yoga classes available before work. He said it wouldn't be a problem and sounded like a good idea.
I know that I can work and take care of her on my own.. and with much less stress when I move.. but the fact is that he is her father and he should share in some of the responsibility and lighten my load somewhat.
Other than that we also discussed money.. and how I look forward to getting a new job but that I want to find one that pays well. Because although he shares in the responsibility of financially taking care of D2 he should not be financially responsible for taking care of me. He said that he doesn't mind. And I said that I do. I look at the extra money he makes through his business as his money and he shouldn't be having to spend it on me. He said that he views it as family money.. not his money... and that we are a family "even if it's currently dysfunctional".
Sounds like there were some positives in what H did and said, even though him showing up late was annoying.
He's so confusing though- (I guess he remains confused himself). I can't remember (and sorry if I missed it) but has he said he wants to work things out or anything similar since he realised his feeling for OW weren't real? I feel like I want to give him a piece of my mind!!
((((Where)))) You sound like you're really on top of things!
