Hi longhaul. Man, what a story. I'm so very sorry.
Quote: H is probably right I need to chill out.
Frankly, your H needs to get a clue...but that's neither here nor there right now. Sounds like you've held up remarkably well, but sound tired... Like LL said, there's really nothing you can do about your H right now. Seems he's still in the throes of his post-A.
So that leads me to ask about what you're doing for yourself, longhaul... Have you started anything just for yourself, something to relieve you of all of this junk just temporarily? Have you set any goals for yourself in this regard? All of us have something--LL is in EMT training, I've been taking Yoga, Sage goes to school, Floyd has begun a workout regimine (and is getting painting pointers from LL). Ha...it's funny...it's like we're all part of a querky family.