Best Time of my Life 5

[Treese]

gosh YR....

I"m thinking..really...they have to face these issues eventually....right???My H says he doesn't need help...that he is perfectly fine....he didn't leave because of another person but because of "us"...he had to be true to himself....that he deserved to be happy and he hasn't been happy with me for a very long time...that don't I understand...it's how he feels....

Today is my D's 16th birthday...H brought flowers over last night and put them in the door...then texted her to tell her they were there....and a card telling her he loves her more than she can imagine....

Called his mom the other night sad he was upset because D's aren't talking to them but that he will keep trying to get them to understand why he did this....this is why I am so convinced that he will not return...look at what he is telling people...as long as his kids understand why then he can move on with his new life....I guess I'm a little down today....but I am keeping the happy face and so on because it is D's 16th birthday....

I am taking her shopping and to dinner....we will have fun...just me and her.....

Got a call this morning that my SIL (who is my best friend & who H lives with) was taken to the hospital....so I went...saw MIL, FIL...whole family...I started to cry when I saw them...its the first I've seen them since Christmas....MIL was tell BIL...that sometimes in life things are tough...that she went through very tough times....(that was for me to hear I'm sure)....blah, blah, blah....she said to me..."you look pretty...I see you're not missing out on the sun"....I said...I am trying to keep busy...then she said she was leaving....she was mad a her daughter for being in the hospital...(she was there because she had drank & taken her meds and her blood alcohol level was sky high) I guess she was pretty bad...when I went in to the room she grabbed me and hugged me and we both started crying....I told her I missed her & that I loved her....she said the same...
Then her H was supposed to go out of town but said he wouldn't because she was going to be staying in the hospital...I offered to stay with her and take care of her....she is family and my best friend....

I stayed for a few hours and left....this is my family...my life...and it is all taken from me...I called H when I left and told him what was going on but he was too busy at work to even listen to what I was saying....was talking to others while I was talking to him....so I said I gotta go...bye....that was it...

Life is funny....SIL is obviously not stable...I knew she had a drinking problem but I thought it was resolved....guess not...her mom gets mad at her and puts a lot of pressure on them...maybe this has made its way to H's life and causing him to run from me cause he sees how she treats her H....yells all the time...FIL just sits there and takes it....they've been married 48 years....but I treated my H so good...I did everything for him...so why did he run???

I am lonely and I miss him and my extended family....what happens at Christmas when he brings OW to their house??? Don't know if I can handle that....

Sorry for the long post.....

Treese