You are a great friend LL. If they chose to not join in with you in friendship they are the losers. I know my life is a lot richer because you are my friend.
Good luck tonight. You'll wow them all I'm sure.
Got the dreaded call from the attorney. Stop by if you can.
thanks for stopping by my thread. Sound to me that if you had nothing to worry about then you'd worry about why you had nothing to worry about! Don't worry - some of us are just built like that.
Being a stay-at-home-mom(mum) certainly does make you a little insecure about whether people like you. I say - have the street party, the kids will all love it!
As for the butt-monkeys - that made my laugh. A lot
emt course went well, looks like a fun group..we've been warned it will be a lot of work but that it will be fun too..of course as suspected the male/female ratio is off balance (more male) but that is ok I guess...
they let us out early being the first night and all but did tell us that wont happen often...I called (as asked or rather was told "if you get a break and want to call") during a break to talk to h and son...h called me honey (I think) he calls dd honey and on ocassion cathes himself calling me honey and stops...I told him the other day it's ok to call me honey I don't mind..he let me know that he stopped himself not because of me but because he didn't want me to think he was responding to dd not me..h and son were in the shower when I got home...h had kept him up working with him in the yard. and then h stayed up with me for a bit talking about the day and stuff.
LL you have come so far in the last month,your pma is doing alot better.You will get alot out of the EMT class and hopefully you will be able to spend some time at a fire dept.Also many hospitals hire EMTs.I think as far as waking up the H to play I would leave a note somewhere that he would find it make it sexy and suggestive,I'll bet he's awake!
LL's gonna be a busy bee...every tues and thurs night from now til the end of august...plus a few sat classes and exams thrown in just to make it more fun!!
at first I thought that my being away so much would be a bad thing..but the way things are going right now I think it'll be good for us...I need something other than the house and the kids to deter some of my thinking...and my not being so attentive to h will reinforce to him how much he does want me around. (I hope)
Quote: as far as waking up the H to play I would leave a note somewhere that he would find it make it sexy and suggestive,I'll bet he's awake!
randy randy randy, wish that it were that easy...I can litterally get into the shower with h and when he's finnished shaving he will get out and get dressed...this is a totally low drive man. (guess that does help me to believe his a was just (and I used that word innapropriately) an ea like he says) I can give him "the look", I can say hey why don't we, h just isn't interested till he's interested...on occasion I can "convince" him and then he's surprised I get the "I don't know where that came from" " I didn't think I had it in me tonight" but other times I just don't bother it really shouldn't be all that much effort and once in a while it would be nice to wait for him to come to me...I just get tired of waiting.
Quote: hopefully you will be able to spend some time at a fire dept
dad is a ff, brother is a ff, h was a ff for a short time...so I have spent some time in a firestation or two.
I'm sorry I haven't been around in a while. Things sound SSSOOOO good here! I am so happy for you.
As far as your neighbours, I think we all have those insecurities to some extent. I like your idea of a party to get to know them. Why don't you ask a few of them when they are available, then you will get a better sense of their committment to showing up. I think you will get some takers for sure.
I wish your H could talk some sense into my H. Maybe my H would relate to yours. I keep hoping he will open his eyes someday, but so far, no sign of sense...just increasing distance. From me and the kids. Eight months and counting.
Anyway, I am glad I stopped by for a dose of good news!
thanks for stopping by...I too wish my h could talk some sense into your h but just as it took my h to come to his own senses (he didn't want to listen to even the most sensible (in his eyes) of people) yours too will have to come to his or eventually pay the ultimate price...the loss of his family...one day it will matter to him.
so back to my and my possitives...
had a kinda weird day...drove son to see his doctor about a small moveable bump on the back of his neck...I didn't think it was much to worry about but daddy wanted the reasurance so off I went to the doc's office with the two kiddos...and of course it was nothing to worry about...a swollen lymph node probably caused by a bug bite on his head...forgot my cell phone and h had wanted me to call him as soon as we knew what was up with the bump...on the way home stopped by h's office on the off chance that he may be there...he wasn't...was tempted to drive by ow's house...half way there...realized that would be a waist of time...h wouldn't be there anyway (positive thinking)...so took the kids for pizza...and then off to the pool supply store to have the water in the pool analyzed so they could teach me what the heck to do to get it ready for swimming. needed to go to yet another store for some other household stuff but was too pooped and the kids were pooped so home we came with a quick pit stop to buy milk (and some people think at home moms sit and watch soap operas all day ) talked to h about the bump..he was relaxed having heard from the doc (you see he tried to call me but couldn't reach me so called the doc himself to find out the scoop) told him I was wiped...didn't know what I'd make for dinner..he said just get a pizza...oh no me I start a choppin and a mixing...making homemade chili..am I nuts..I just wanna sit down...(well I suppose this is my break) still have to read three chapters for my emt class tommorow night! UGH!
took a minute to look outside at the pool (it really isn't a "real" pool..it's one of those "easy set" pools..they're pretty cool if you can't yet afford a "real" pool. h really doesn't slack on anything...most people would just find a level enough area, lay down the tarp and fill the thing up and there ya go..no..not my h..he made the area perfectly level (yes he used a line level) build a rock retaining wall for the side that needed one...cut the excess liner...covered the area with stone dust...layed more rock purely decorative forming a circle around the whole pool...it really looks awesome!!
so in admiring my h's work...thinking about how he said just order pizza when I said I was tired...I'm realizing I'm pretty damn lucky!! I wish I knew what this lacking feeling I have was though...do I really want sex, or do I just want to know that h finds me attractive...do I really want to go out and explore the world with h, or am I happy to cuddle on the couch with him...do I really want ... or am I happy...
I think I'm pretty happy...just need to stop looking over my sholder for the next bomb to drop....
Stop by if you can.
Awesome.
) talked to h about the bump..he was relaxed having heard from the doc (you see he tried to call me but couldn't reach me so called the doc himself to find out the scoop) told him I was wiped...didn't know what I'd make for dinner..he said just get a pizza...oh no me I start a choppin and a mixing...making homemade chili..am I nuts..I just wanna sit down...(well I suppose this is my break) still have to read three chapters for my emt class tommorow night! UGH!