On The Rollercoaster Ride!

[addie]

Hi Everyone - thanks for checking in on me.

H got back from his overnight "field work" and has left again this morning for the rest of the weekend for more "field work/research". I really have no idea where he is. He has tried to reassure me several times that he's working/doing research and nothing else. He mentioned to me that he would be back to do something with S for Father's Day and I told him that it is S he has to explain that to.
A couple of nights ago we had a R talk that he brought up where I voiced a lot of my concerns. H asked if I would consider staying here with S and I told him very honestly that after all that's happened I cannot stay. I told him there are many, many issues that have to be addressed and I cannot give up my entire life once again when there are no guarantees that he will even attempt to resolve any issues. As I pointed out to H, this has been an on-going pattern throughout our M - we've been S before there were 2 other EAs (a possible short lived PA) and I'm no longer willing to sweep everything under the rug.

I'm getting ready to move back to my hometown with S the following weekend. I just want to say to anyone reading this that DB does work. Hang in there as long as you can. H came back home after a 6 month EA/PA and a 4 month S. He's apologized and has regretted what he has done.
I don't know what will happen as we will be 2500 miles apart. We obviously need MC and won't be able to do that living that far apart.

Thank you to all those who have supported me through this very difficult period. I wouldn't have been able to get through this without your thoughts and prayers. I know I'll continue to rely on your support in the months ahead.