Well, people react differently. I for one never did wipe my hands of H. I always had the desire to reconcile even after I had moved on. I thought finding out that he was living with OW sealed the deal for me....but I am seeing that I can forgive a lot more than I ever thought I could.
I always left that door open and I think it is way too soon for you to shut it Chris. The easy thing to do would be to shut it, but no one said this was easy. In fact, it is probably the hardest thing most of us have done.
One thing I did kind of get used to was being by myself though. Embrace that time to yourself. You have no one to answer to and can do everything on your schedule. You have no one to worry about right now except you and your daughters. Try to find the positives in this separation. I still stand by the statement that if my H and I had never separated then we would be D today. I beleive that 100%. This CAN be a good thing for you.
I was a mess for a long time. In complete shock and denial. This takes time Chris, but I think once your H moves out you will be able to detach yourself from the situation.
Hang in there, this can be a long road. My H were separated for 4 months before he showed ANY kind of turn around....and that is just a drop in the bucket compared to some.
