Hi new- So you didn't handle things the way you think you should have...it is okay...you are human. How did your H react? Can you try to make something positive out of this. After things calmed down, did you and your H discuss what was said? Try to learn what you can from this so you might be able to handle the situation you want to next time.
You know you can't change your H, you can only change yourself. So, keep focusing on all of your positives and find ways to accept (and be happy with) your H for who he is. You know that you didn't like your life without your H, so find new ways to make your life with him work.
