I also have never posted to your stitch before, it does should incredible strength to tell us what happend.
no judgments here, but ditto what Karen said. you need to stop all contact now. I think you do know what you truly want,, so work towards that with no distractions of OM.
take care
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
