Karen, why are you up sooo late? This isn't like you.
kat
Nope, I usually go to bed around 11 or so, but I woke up in the middle of the night last night, upset about last night, and couldn't sleep! I did go back to sleep after an hour or so I got tired again. I was upset.
It's funny b/c last night, H was really mad about my switching the doctor the whole night. And I was saying on the phone on the way home (we were talking on the phone) I was sorry about something I had done in the past (when I was depressed last year & I try not to do that but it came out) and he said that doesn't bother him anymore, but what I'm doing now, like switching the doctors does. And he had said earlier won't ever appreciate me, etc. And then I said I think you know in your heart I am doing my best now and H didn't say anything b/c I think he knows it's true (although even when I was depressed I guess I did the best I could then although my best wasn't very good then)!!!
But I'm not feeling as low as I did yesterday, thank goodness, I guess actually he's not always acting distant anymore; if he didn't care about me, would he get so upset? So I guess his being mad is an improvement over him acting distant (I guess)??? So I'm trying to look at the positive again! Karen
Karen