I agree with your thoughts but the D is happening no matter what I do in the next few months. Only she can stop it. She wants to speed it up and get everything. I will not speed it up. I will not delay but it is very difficult to live in a house together while she is having the A. She is always on the phone with the OM, during kid events, dinner time, 3:00AM, etc. She doesn't even hide it from me and the kids. How much of this can one person stomach.
Journal:
Yesterday we had a kid event and attended somewhat together. She was on the phone 90% of the event. I fed the kids and then she was on the phone while drinking for 4-5 hours. She said that she cannot sleep because "she has alot on her mind". What that is, I don't know, or want to know. I cannot see whay she is so troubled - she is getting everything that she wants.
She is going away for the weekend (again) tonight and then I get 2.5 days with the kids. This is 3 of 4 weekends that she has been gone. The kids are really feeling abandoned by her.
I was much better yesterday. My best day since finding out about the A.
