last night a friend volunteered herself to babysit..so h and I went out for a bit...
we were talking about sleeping...and my lack of it..I just don't give in..push myself to stay awake always have..
this somehow led to the topic of going on line..
speaking of going on line...
led to my asking h about his going to the ismh.com site and looking at her house...
h said he looked...wanted to see if it had sold yet...
I asked if he missed her...
he said no...
I asked if he was being honest...
he said "I'm right were I want to be"
he is happy...
again said sorry...
said...maybe someday I'll have an elaborate explenation for why this all happend but right now I just don't.
let him know that I'm still having a hard time some days with it...
again he said sorry..
let me know that he always cared about me..always...and that said something to him...let me know that it was ME that he cared about...it wasn't just the kids.
