The past few days I have made bad decisions, knowingly, but seemingly unable to get myself to stop making them. Seeing OM turned my life around, made me feel like I had made a HUGE mistake, felt such extreme sadness, stayed in bed whenever I could, migraines began again...
First things first....have to have No Contact again. God, the mess I make......I will get this done this weekend hopefully, possibly tomorrow. I am NOT telling H about this...will not help us.
It sounds like you realize you made a mistake; and you now realize any contact with OM has to be stopped. I think it is a drug/addiction and you should just stay away completely from that. Why put off the no contact until this weekend? I would do it NOW! If you were an alcoholic or drug addict, and you were going to stop in a few days; it's best to just stop immediately I think. And I think you are right about not telling your H. Karen
