So did ya all miss me? Yea right…. Ok So Friday I actually put on my P.D uniform. First time this year. (I am a reserve). I went out and actually towed 5 vehicles that the drivers were driving with no license. It felt good doing something that I used to do before I started waiting for the end to arrive. Saturday I went to W cousin’s son’s graduation. It was a little weird. W cousin said nothing about the roses... Not sure if she knew they were from me but think she kind of figured. (Ok I have not done anything stupid like that again. I don’t know what I was thinking except I miss giving things and showing affection to someone. The party was ok. Sunday I went and split a cord of wood because the tree trimmer may be bringing a few cords of Oak for me to sell (side business). W is putting an application in for a job in town tomorrow. It pays less than she wants but she is finely figuring out after a year that something is better that nothing. Now for my mind set. I have (at least for now). Changed my thinking from waiting for the end to arrive to lets fix this. I have been looking at the retro thing as an end. I mean I was looking at it as an end to life as I have lived it. Now I have been tiring to look at it as a step in the right direction... I don’t know how much longer I can keep this train of thought but I am trying to use the laws of attraction to my benefit. I am finely getting excited about my trip with my son. This time next week I will be in eureka with him. When I get back it will be only 19 more days till retro. (Who I have not heard anything from YET). Ok now for something weird. My next door neighbors have disappeared. I mean the house is empty. It has been happening a lot around here. They bought the house for $540.000 and now it is worth about $ 340.000/ they must have had house payments around $3.000 a month. Well I need to go to bed now. Oh yea...to the peopld I wrote about showing my W my jurnal do not worry I have decieded not to.
See ya later Husband... (Feeling pretty good)
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I have been looking at the retro thing as an end. I mean I was looking at it as an end to life as I have lived it. Now I have been tiring to look at it as a step in the right direction...
I have heard lots of positive things about retro, but your attitude will make the most positive impact I think. Glad to hear you are feeling good!
Are you planning gifts to leave for your wife while you and your son are away like you did last year?
Haven't left, just haven't posted to you in awhile.
I think looking at it as a step in the right direction is perfect.
And I'm so excited for your camping trip with son. Enjoy every minute of it!!
Glad to hear your choice on the journal. Maybe later, but not now. Just let things be for the moment, July's not so far off.
I will be at something called Safari West with my Dad on Sunday. I hear it's in your neck of the woods (even more so than Sonoma!). Heard of it? Is it pretty cool?
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
I'm still here too. Just reading and following along. Not much to say. Unless you need me to hit you with a 2X4. Have a good camping trip. I know your son will really enjoy it.
Thanks Sara and Nik. Yes Nik I got your e-Mail AND I STILL HAVE YOUR PRESENT… And Sara forgive me for posting my scope today..
Work is SLOOOOOOOOOOW this week so that is not helping me keep my mind off of stuff. We will be driving by Safari west Nik on Sunday. (Never been there but I heard it's pretty cool. I bought my son a Wii game for him and me to play next week. He does not know it yet. He always plays these fighting games and I can't figure half of them out so I bought an off road racing game. It has steering wheels and seems like it will be pretty fun. W has been sooo Nice. (No intimacy)I can't help but to be suspicious. W sold my stock to "pay off my Jeep" and she put in an application yesterday for a job at the Santa Rosa J.C I am going to be contacting Retro again next week if I do not hear from them soon. I am torn between looking at the phone bill. I mean I can do it anytime. Now, durring my "vacation" or when I get back. The Problem is I am starting to "trust" my W a little and I feel like If I do see she is still in contact then I AM A IDIOT, A FOOL in thinking things may have been getting better. I feel so stupid for believing her and trusting my wife last year. I do think I can build that trust again but....If I am proven a fool again then I will never be able to repair this. My two Daughters wanted to take me to see "the happening" on Friday the 13th and then go play some pool. I have wanted to talk to them about my problems for so long but I know they will think bad abut their step mom. Why do I care? I don't know I’m a pieces I guess. Well I need to go back to work and get bored Later Husband
Pisces Talking about your past may seem like a good idea, but it probably won't have the effect you are seeking. Your apparently innocent disclosure could, in fact, have an impact that's exactly opposite your intention. ( My Journal? )You are moving into a couple of days when anything can happen, so don't worry if something goes awry. Let the unexpected event run its course and then figure out what makes the most sense to do next.
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Your W is NOT in contact with OM and she is being nice because she has seen how hard you are working at the M, how much you have changed, and she is looking for a way to improve the M.
Going to Retro might just have taken the weight of solving all that off her shoulders......which is why she is happier. Has it occurred to you she is probably scared sh!tless about this too.....but even so she is being NICE.
You are looking for problems that don't exist here my friend- know how I know that.....because I do it all the time!!!!!!
You are a great dad and a wonderful person - why shouldn't she be nice to you? Also, perhaps she has had good news on her health issues?
Enjoy yourself my fine friend!!!!! And that's an order!!!!!
(Sara, was that 2x4 hard enough?)
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
Have you heard from Yoyo at all? I wondered how she was- I know she is away at the moment.
I am just off to do the school run....and then on to see the vet about Kath's pony - it's hurt itself again......something different but could be a bit dicy!!!!!!
I will try and get online with you later.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
