Quote: Awww, you're not nuts, honey...I should know! (I'm speaking professionally of course )
isn't it those who don't think they're nuts that you really have to worry about anyway??!!
Quote: You just seem to be someone who feels deeply and can put it down in words very well. Do I need to say AGAIN that I share some of your feelings?
ya, it's a gift to be able to put your minds tourment into words isn't it!! I know others share my feelings...I just have more of a tendancy to let them out...working on doing it verbally (calmly) rather than in outward burst...that is why at times my vents are full of...well full of what I can't say...how's that LL at a loss for words.
Quote: I'm not sure if I feel "it" anymore either...it's been a looong time. But what is "it" anyway? Are we talking about the honeymoon, heart fluttering, passion? Does that really last anyway?
don't know exactly what the "it" is that h was searching for and getting from ow...for me "it" is simply comfort...knowing you're safe to be you with that person. the flutter??? doubt that lasts...but in some ways it does...sure a h will fart infront of you and not care much for what he's wearing...but he still wont kiss you (a real kiss) with morning breath.
Quote: How's this: H and I didn't make love on our WEDDING NIGHT! We grabbed a burger and went to sleep .
poor poor shiny...at least I got that "it" on our honey moon...and plenty of "it" too...I say I was bored cause every night we sat in the same lounge listening to the same guy sing songs with a bunch of older people...the nights that I did have fun where when we snuck off to the arcade or just roamed the halls looking at old pictures and stuff...I supose I shouldn't say I was bored..I did enjoy myself and would like to go back again.
Quote: I know for sure that I want some of "it" back in my life. I told H this just the other night. Just kind of stuck in familiar routines, ya know?
some routine is good...but too much can become stale.
Quote: I have to hand it to you folks whose S's won't tell all about what the R with OP was about. At least CJ has afforded me that comfort and that pain. It takes some of the painful guess work out.
in some ways h has told me what the ow was about...very indirectly of course...I don't think h actualy "knows" what the ow was about other than "it" was there...I do still ponder were they phisical..and I'd have to venture that h's answer will always be no...
Quote: When you ask why your H ever married you....could it be because he loves you??? Just a thought.
it's a shame that his response the last time I asked was that it was just the next step...I know h married me because he loved me...thing is he didn't realize just how much he loved me until he tried to leave me...you don't know how much he aged (oh the grey hairs...I'll die when I get one) over the last year.
well I'm beat! just painted the top half of dd's bedroom...I'm pooped and off to la la land myself...hoping for some cuddles but I'll be ok if not h is after all snoring already.
