Awww, you're not nuts, honey...I should know! (I'm speaking professionally of course )
You just seem to be someone who feels deeply and can put it down in words very well. Do I need to say AGAIN that I share some of your feelings?
How's this: H and I didn't make love on our WEDDING NIGHT! We grabbed a burger and went to sleep .
I'm not sure if I feel "it" anymore either...it's been a looong time. But what is "it" anyway? Are we talking about the honeymoon, heart fluttering, passion? Does that really last anyway?
I know for sure that I want some of "it" back in my life. I told H this just the other night. Just kind of stuck in familiar routines, ya know?
VERY glad to hear you're having a fun night out. See? Just when you're about to throw in the towel, about to write them off, they go and surprise you like that!
I have to hand it to you folks whose S's won't tell all about what the R with OP was about. At least CJ has afforded me that comfort and that pain. It takes some of the painful guess work out.
When you ask why your H ever married you....could it be because he loves you??? Just a thought.