Searching for the truth..for me 5

[phbear316]

Oh Jeanette

LOL, LOL, Scalp Itch. I love it. I know right have to hear it from MIL. He just does not know how to tell me anything or even talk to me. It will be one year ago this weekend that he told me he wanted a D. And i will not let it get to me. No way no how.

He just does not know how to communicate, lunatic, he is having a hard time keeping the lies straight. That is becoming more and more obvious.

There will be no emotions, he won't say that bull [censored] to me over you never loved me. he would not. I am being fair and being fair to me.

There is a song new song, and it has some lines that i plan to toast to myself and h when the divorce is final. They may sound crazy to you but mean something to me cause I cannot stop listening to this song.

"Truth is I am done pretending I never thought that i had anymore to give, pushing me so far here I am with out you. Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes we have made everything will change but love will remain the same. "

I believe i have to say good bye to the past, and this failed marriage, but I also have to believe in hope and love, cause as i say there is someone else out there for me.

Jeanette - maybe P LOL.

I was saying to (p) today I just want this to be over with, I am now at the point I just want to get the ball rolling in this. I will have to speak with him next week, for he will notice my check is not going into the joint account. Maybe he won't who knows, I want to either do this with lawyers or mediation.

My head will be held high, you know, i was just sitting here thinking I cannot remember the last time i cried about H and what he is doing. Guess its a sign for me i am healing and moving on.

I just want to start moving ahead for me

hugs
bear