Quote: What I'm trying to say (and I send tons of gentle wishes with it) is that you can obsess about what H did with or felt for OW all you want. It wont solve anything at all. It'll attack your own self esteem because you'll be comparing yourself to what you think OW was all about for H... what you think H wanted... not what H really wanted, but your imagination.
or perhaps h could enlighten me a tad on what it was that he was missing other than simply "that feeling" so that we can work toward making sure his needs are being met..cause as far as I can tell his needs were being met all along!! it was my needs that weren't being met...but for some reason or another h felt compelled to fulfill at least one of her needs and that is being her friend...supporting her when she was low...stopping what he was doing to go and give her a ride...stopping what he was doing to take the time to go and visit her..taking the time from what he was doing to go out to lunch with her..taking the time out of what he was doing to accept an invitation to go out to lunch with her...heck I can't even get h to commit to one night a week set aside for "us" time and this woman had "us" time with him three times a week??
I better just stop venting now cause I know you'll all start accussing me of becoming a waw...funny thing is I have been a waw all along...I just wasn't the one to walk...I was still trying...still struggling to make it work...still holding on to that last shred of hope til the day that shred of hope got thrown away...
tell me again why I should hold on...tell me again why it is that I let h come home...tell me again what it is that I should be happy about in this r with h?? cause right now I feel lonely and sad and like it really wouldn't matter much if he were to leave.
