I do like you SG, I think you are a really caring person, so please don't take that entirely wrong. I think you are in a difficult place. I think that publicly you have to say one thing, but maybe privately feel different.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK