I'm getting to the mad stage now, and I don't like it. On one hand I think it will make it easier for me to detach, but on the other hand I'm scared I'm going to get to a point that if he comes back ready to try, I'm going to be so hurt by everything he has done, that I will then be done.
I can't imagine it, but I can't imagine ANY of what is happening right now.
Chris
Chris....you need to prepare yourself for that happening. It's happened to me. Sort of. What I mean by that is that my H hasn't come back wanting to work things out but I have wiped my hands of him and have no desire to put our marriage back together. I just can't. The trust is gone. The hurt was far too deep. I'm not really angry anymore, just indifferent. I have even started dating! I'm not looking for a relationship but I am interested in meeting new people and dating. If you read some of my threads from a couple months ago I felt like what I am doing now and how I'm feeling now was completely IMPOSSIBLE! But I am...and truth be told, I'm alot happier now than I have been in years! This is why I have stopped posting. I'm just done. Neither of us are filing b/c of financial reasons but we both know it will come eventually. Just today I contacted him to get his dresser out of our bedroom so I could put my bookshelf in there. I painted the spare room (where he used to keep most of his stuff) PINK!!! lol It's going to be my new scrapbook/craft room. It was a HUGE step for me and really healing.
Last edited by shatteredheart31; 06/12/0807:42 PM.
Me=31 H=36 D=4 H dropped bomb and moved out=4/17/08, living with his mother 50 minutes away from home and work.
