Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[blindsided1]

Hello all. Today is okay. I'm having a little bit of a difficult time, it's my birthday. The big 4-0 and I haven't heard from H, at all. I suspect that I won't. Everyone keeps telling me not to let it ruin my day. But, how do you do that? I'm just trying to stay busy and look forward to spending time with my friends. But, what I really want is to spend time with my H. That's just not going to happen though. It just makes me sad. So, I'm trying not to have any expectations. But, how do you that? Just wanted to check in. I'll check in a little later, maybe. Hopefully, my mood will be better. The baby is one week away. I just need to focus on that.