Have a question about my sitch

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Phew! Most of the destructive things happened in my head last night, so I'm relieved to have some reassurance that I didn't say anything or act terribly last night.

I wish I wouldn't have texted her to tell her not to worry about calling me though. Although I said "don't worry about it," I wasn't asking her to NOT call me, so the fact that she didn't is confusing to me. She might have needed her own space, I just don't know. I really have absolutely no clue what is going on in her head.

My C has said multiple times (including yesterday) that sometime in the near future (like within the next week or so), I need to initiate a conversation to talk about the terms of this S - so that I know what is going on. She said to approach it from the perspective that I also have a life, so at some point we need to have that conversation so that I can move on with my life as well, whether it be with or without her.

I'm uncomfortable with her suggesting that because I'm on here and it seems to go against this "rule" of no R talk, and being dark.

Thoughts?