There and Back, up and walking #2

[SallyM]

saffie, hope you are feeling much better! yuck on the migraines.

hey all,

just wanted to update. things are going really well here. h had a consult last week with his IC and an appt today...fingers crossed its a good fit. based on his conv last week it sounds like it will be. the guy is even a dad of twins, so understands that dynamic. I am continuing my own IC as well.

the one thing we haven't done is start MC yet. I would still like to, but honestly things are going really well so far even without it. we are breaking patterns right and left, telling each other our needs, listening to the others person's needs, striking middle ground when needed. we have definitely improved our commincation 10-fold. one of my favorite things is something my friend (the therapist, not my therapist) suggested which was to think about the silver linings from separation and see if those can be incorporated into our marriage. h and I talked a bit about it, would like us to talk some more about it/make a list of them.

just feeling really good about things right now. my only regret? spending time on a date with h seeing indiana jones last weekend. um, really? that's what they did with that? soooo disappointing.

still amazed that we ended up here. even more amazed that its been a month now. wow.

one of the nicest things is that every time I used to get an email from him I would literally feel sick/catch my breath as I opened it. now I get emails that are sweet, full of fun plans/ideas. love that. I realized the other day that I no longer felt my stomach clench when I saw his name in my inbox and I actually started crying. bawling like a baby in fact. think I'm done waiting for that shoe to drop finally...doesn't seem like its going to.

granted, it still could, and I still know I'll be okay if it does. but damn, I am loving that it seems to be all systems go on our R instead.