I have been keeping a note book with me. Its where I put down my thoughts, the important things she says and if it was a good day or bad. I try and keep track of it all just to try and see if there is progress. Its sometimes hard to see the good when it happens but as I look back I notice the progress.
Slow is what I have been doing. I told her months ago that sex was off the table and that I will not ask her for it because I knew she had no desire to have it and it would make matters worse not better. I want her but I need to control that urge until she is commited to saving our M and wants to have sex with me and not do it because I want it.
Sorry for all that is happening in your sitch. Wish I could help. Wish I had posted earler but sharing my feelings and personal stuff with other people is hard for me and I really didn't think I could add anything to what other people had posted. Thanks for listning to me and trying to help. You seem like a great guy and I know you will pull thru this.
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Will I? I'm in a hole right now and can't get out.
