I'm sitting here in tears tonight. I know, I need to just turn it over to God but I'm having a hard time!
When H was staying in the same house with me I lost about 30 lbs & he could tell. The night he cussed me out he made the comment that I was hurt innocent little thing just sitting here & that I was a leech & he just wanted to get away from me. I keep remembering that night & I have it on tape (he didn't know I taped that) & it hurts so bad the things he said to me! He did come to me 3 days later & apologize for the language he used, so I don't know if someone told him to do that or if he felt guilty. I just keep hearing it over & over in my mind, things he said & it hurt so bad!!!
I try to stay strong but I just miss him so bad & can't believe he treated me like he did. I know he is very upset about the outcome of the D & like I've said before, I'm afraid he will hold a grudge & never come back.
Sorry, I didn't mean to get into all of this. He was just so mean to me during all of this & I know it's because things didn't go like he planned. He used to have moral values & used to me such a nice person & he loved me so much. I just hope he will come to his senses & I will hear from him again.
Thanks for being here for me! Just a rough night!!!!
