Best Time of my Life 5

[Treese]

YR;

I know what I want to believe in my heart but don't know if I'm just fooling myself in to thinking he may return....My heart says yes, my mind says yes....but his actions and words say absolutely not....I did some very intense praying the other night...for God to just take it away from me so I can breathe freely and not care where H is....that is the hard part....My MIL...well...she just wants me not to care and move on saying he will always be a part of my life...yea well....grrrrrr.....

I think the lonliness is the killer....the feeling you have when you have no one to talk to...I mean...H was my best friend...now he's her best friend.....

And....the painting is done!!!!!!!!!!!It looks beautiful....so serene....and my room looks so much bigger....the color is called sea lily which is like the ocean green...omg...I just love it...and I did all the moving of dressers, the bed...you name it...all by myself...I am taking pictures of my kids from when they were born up til now and printing them in sepia and framing them in white and I have one whole wall to display them...all different sizes....I'm actually amazing myself...LOL!!
Then I went out in the 90 degree weather and cut the grass...yep...although son had to show me how to start it...it's weird...but I did it, now I know...LOL!!

Then went grocery shopping and now I can't move...LOLOLOLOL!! I am so sore...too funny....but it's done....my upstairs is coming together...one room at a time....just like this MLC crap....one day at a time...

off to bed....even my fingers hurt....

Treese